Having celebrated (or more like experienced) a recent birthday, I realize that it’s a new year, with a new outlook, and I’m grateful for my life just as it is today! In so many ways, I finally have a perfect life and I’m grateful.
When life hands you lemons and you finally figure out how to make lemonade, I think it becomes easier to be grateful…
I can’t claim to have had the worst past life, but it did hit a low point just five years ago. I used to dread going home when I’d work out-of-town because of the conflict and apathy that I knew awaited me. My teenage son was out of control and friends feared for my life and safety. My narcissistic (this according to medical experts) now-ex-husband was having an affair with someone I had formerly considered a friend. Living with verbal abuse and disregard from those who “loved me” hurt beyond words, and I remember yearning for a life of peace and support and love.
At the time, it was debilitating and I felt safety only when I was alone and away – not at home. It was the closest thing to “hell” that I ever want to know. The good news is that today, I am happier and enjoy a peace-filled life as a happy singleton, with supportive, healthy relationships with both my of my grown children and friends. I no longer have any fears about safety and my son has matured and is one of the joys of my life!
Some might say that credit belongs to “The Secret” where my thoughts and dreams became a reality over the past 5 years, but I believe that such positive thinking is only a part of it. Everything changes daily (baby steps at a time) and I share this because I believe that every situation is eventually changeable. My current life is quite wonderful. I am grateful to have a rewarding career, healthy grown children, and close friends who care… I’m grateful to have confidence and a new sense of survivorship. I wake up knowing that no matter how bad a situation might seem – it is temporary and can be transformed over time.
In my new life, I embrace change for the good things it brings even if it means momentary discomfort. I realize that self-love is the greatest love of all that surpasses all other. I am learning to forgive the past, and yet realize that its memories makes it easy to appreciate what I have.
It’s a new year, with a new outlook and I’m happy to be me, so I can share it with you!
Wishing you a great week.