I’ve been on hiatus – living life to the fullest, meeting new people, having the best time of my life, learning that becoming my own best friend is a wonderful thing!
As part of this journey of happiness (“Happiness is a journey not a destination” – Souza), I am discovering that TRUST is a powerful word laden with all sorts of emotional baggage from the past. I grew up with an unbalanced view of God and the universe (in my humble opinion) – if anything in my life went well, I was told that it was because of God shining favorably on me. However, if anything went bad in my life, well that was solely due to my inadequacy to make things go right – and furthermore it must have been due to my personal lapse with God.
Today I know better! I know that there are certain things that are within my control (trusting my instincts, choosing what is best for me, putting my best self into a relationship, making good choices, choosing whether to stay friends with abusive people, being kind, doing charity, etc.) and there are many things that are completely outside of my control (how other people behave, other people’s choices, what people say or do to me, the weather, traffic patterns, who passes me on the street, when the universe will deliver what I need, etc.)
It’s not really trust when it is within YOUR control…
For me, the road to becoming blissfully happy has been to know the difference between what I can control (me) and what I cannot. Trusting myself has little risk – the outcome is something that I can reliably count on. I trust that my perceptions, feelings, intuitions, and outlook are genuine and right for me. It is powerful to know this (and to dismiss as uninformed anyone who tells me otherwise.)
Sidenote: If you are like me and spent time in a narcissistic or controlling household or marriage or relationship, to arrive at a position of trusting oneself (after years of being told your perceptions were wrong) is an accomplishment in itself. Never allow anyone to override what you know is best for you – your intuition is the best friend you can ever have! Read The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz for guidance on doing this (Agreement #1 – Always live with integrity. (in other words, respect and love yourself and never say anything to yourself that you would not say to a best friend!)
Trust really comes in when you do not have control…
I believe that our views on Trust (trusting another to put your best interests first) gives “Trust” way too much power over us.
We trust our government to do the right thing (individuals do what is in THEIR best interests not necessarily ours), friends to be there for us (again it may not be in their best interests all the time), family to love us (outside of our control), and the universe/God to answer our prayers and manifest our dreams (timing is outside of our control.) And when the other party lets us down, we find it hard to trust again.
But, when we reframe the word Trust into a concept where we let go of the outcome and tie Trust to Hope and not Expectations – we can continue to Trust without being angry or hurt by the outcome.
Trust tied to expectations ends up being about me (which is ego-centric and unfair to everyone involved).
Trust tied to hope is about letting go of the outcome and realizing that life happens in spite of us. This is a much healthier way to live.
Let me illustrate with a few examples:
1. I ask you to mail a package for me and I “trust” that you will do it.
If trust = expectations, then if something comes up (outside of my control) and you neglect to mail the package at the appointed time, I will be angry at you for not meeting my expectations (and putting me ahead of other priorities). If trust = hope, I can let go of the emotion that the outcome had anything to do with me. I can be disappointed, but with hope, I can realize that the outcome was not within my control. I trusted that the outcome would be good, but can live with the fact that it was not what I had hoped for.
2. I ask you to go to a company dinner with me and I “trust” that you will attend.
If trust = expectations, then if you forget to put it on your calendar and make other plans, I will be agitated that I wasn’t important enough (when the result may have had little to do with me.) If trust = hope, then I can be disappointed, but I can realize that I cannot control you or your behavior. (I may not ask you the next time, or may remind you next time, but I can live knowing that I am not in control of you!)
3. I commit my dreams to God/the Universe and “trust” that they will come true.
If trust = expectations, then when my dreams do not manifest in the exact time and place I want, I lose faith in God and the universe and wonder what I did wrong. If trust = hope, then as my dreams unfold in the exact way that is best for me (I have to trust in this) then I am okay with the outcome. Life seldom unfolds in the exact way we would have it if we were entirely in control, and often it comes out better than we could have ever planned.
The Next Five Weeks…
I have a wedding (my son), a move (5 weeks notice to vacate was just given to me by my landlord), the holiday season (laden with people and stressors), and some family issues to deal with… I know that I will get through it all by reframing Trust with Hope. I trust (hope) that the universe will help me to find the perfect new place to live; that my son’s wedding will be a day they long remember with fondness; that the family issues will sort themselves out. But I don’t expect it all to be “peaches and cream and rosy.” I can do what I can do and Trust (= hope) that everything will turn out fine.
I hope that something I’ve written here resonates with you – have a wonderful December and a Happy New Year 2013!
- trust is NOT passive (lorenafeliz.wordpress.com)
- 20 Ways Gratitude Improves Productivity (lifehack.org)
- Trust (annielowry.com)
- Trusting God With My Choices (endingillusions.wordpress.com)
- trust and a tiger (butterfliesblankpages.wordpress.com)
- Giving Hope (anewperfection.wordpress.com)
- Harvest Trust (hastywords.wordpress.com)
- Success Will Come and Go, But Integrity is Forever (forbes.com)
- People are who they are and they do what they do (bluegrassnotes.wordpress.com)
- “You are Life.” ~ Don Miguel Ruiz (realrest.wordpress.com)