When our word isn’t dissipated by doubt, the power of our word is even stronger.
– don Miguel Ruiz, The Four Agreements
Lately, I’ve been thinking about the power of Doubt, maybe it’s because I am learning that I am the only one who can ever make myself happy, and the pain of a narcissistic long-term relationship is moving further away.
Today, I realize that I am a whole, complete and perfect (okay, two out of three isn’t bad!) person who can do anything I set my dreams on (with confidence!), who deserves love and gives much to the world.
It wasn’t always like that, I lived with Doubt (I constantly questioned whether I was good enough, smart enough, lovable…) – all due to my own misgivings and “healthy doses of doubt and gentle correction” heaped on by those around me. I was addicted to doubt!
“Doubt” used to be a frequent companion,
a hanger-on’er who came into my life in early childhood and who crept around making sure I would stop myself before trying new or challenging things. (Somehow I managed to keep doubt at bay in my business, all the while he wreaked havoc in my personal life!)
I know that Doubt has emerged in great force in this economy – he plays increasingly larger parts in the lives of others I know – and these are good, solid, inspiring people who deserve success and great things. Yet, Doubt has moved in taking up the real estate that Confidence deserves to own.
(Aside: as a recovering Doubt-addict, I know that instilling confidence and supporting others is an important step in their own Doubt-recovery! Inspire confidence in others through the power of your (positive!) words.)
Get Past a Doubt-filled Past!
I know that in my past, “Doubt” was seldom alone – he was usually cheered on by a crowd who agreed that I would screw up whatever I might think to try. Doubt (and his supporters) never liked me for who I am, and that’s why I need to steer clear of him!
“Doubt” loved being best friends with my (harsh) inner critic, my parents, and my spouse – they would take turns playing “you need to change this” and “who do you think you are?” “Doubt” crept around like he didn’t belong (he never did) but when he partnered with others, it was downright insidious. He was like a storm cloud always threatening rain!
In nature, we have the power of water and wind to erode, in people we allow doubt to sculpt us into wisps of people immobilized with holes that doubt inflicts. I believe that doubt is an addiction – that if it is left unchecked can render one addicted and damaged.
“We are born to do wonderful, innovative, passionate things with our life, and to live a happy life! We are born to be confident and find our way! We are born to be surrounded by sunshine – it is our (confidence-inspired) destiny!” – Carol Dekkers
Doubt pours down on those possibilities and leaves us unmotivated, tired, and uninspired. Some days it might seem like the sun will never come out.
If I can be a Doubt-Survivor, so can you!
I’ve overcome my doubt addiction through conscious work, and by neutralizing the negative doubt-mongering (but well-intentioned) people in my life (some I have de-friended entirely!)
While yesterday had room for Doubt, my future does not! The work involved realizing that I was living without integrity – that is, I was saying things to myself that I would never say to a best friend. While I didn’t do a formal 12 step doubt-removal program, Today I can proudly announce that I am in doubt recovery!
While we cannot control the seeds of doubt that others try to plant in our fertile minds, we can banish them from our mind’s garden – and nurture positive, inspiring affirmations that in time, will remove the power of doubt. Confidence renders “Doubt” speechless.
You are intended to be… great! So go out today and get started – you don’t have a heartbeat to wait.
Have a great week!
p.s., Send me a note if you’d like to know more about how I overcame doubt… it’s a journey of self-discovery and self-love!