I waited literally months and months to be able to proudly announce this!
This is not to say that I’m finished my journey towards full acceptance that being alone is a choice and an honor to myself, but rather to announce to myself that I am whole, complete and perfect, just as I am.
When I got divorced five years ago after an adulthood of being married, I looked around to find that most of my friends were acquaintances who live around the world (that is still true), or neighbors who weren’t really friends (my next door neighbors allowed my ex-husband to live with them for six months after the divorce), and local “friends” who chose sides and were unavailable to me.
I felt totally alone for the first time in my life (having grown up with 4 siblings, this was a rare occurrence) – and the isolation and loneliness felt like it was going to swallow me whole. At the time, I yearned for friendship and the company of anyone who would share a coffee with me!
You’ve probably heard that the universe (or God) seldom gives you more than you can handle – and that all good things come to those who wait – and in retrospect, I have to agree. I would never wish the isolation and utter loneliness I felt on anyone – yet I know that loneliness can be a state of mind as much as a circumstance.
As an extrovert, being alone was not a natural state, but today I applaud the solitude and refreshment that comes from loving one’s own company. Today I CHOOSE friends who reciprocate my giving, and I no longer tolerate people who use me. I realize that I deserve people in my life who respect and honor me – and I am cutting out people who do not.
For the first time in my life, I honor that my new best friend (me) deserves only the best treatment from others – and I will not accept anything less on her behalf!
This wasn’t always the way – when I loved others more than I loved myself, I would end up giving others more than I gave myself and I felt sad that the reciprocity simply wasn’t there. Now, I realize that the only one who will ever take care for me is me! You can never be lonely when you are happy to be together in your own company!
Do you agree with me?
My message to you with this post is this: If you feel lonely in your own company, commit to changing your outlook – one day at a time.
In other words, commit to becoming your own best friend and finding fun and happiness with him/her. You will be the only friend you’ll find who is guaranteed not to leave you!
My journey has taken five years (and I’m still traveling) – but it has been well worth the hills, mountains, valleys and swamps I’ve traversed to get here. There are still days when I recall my daughter’s words after the divorce: “Mom, you have to walk through fire for a long time to get to the other side, but it WILL be worth it!” She is too wise for her 27 years!
Begin with becoming your own best friend and cheerleader – today! Learn to celebrate the great things about you, yourself and you (sidenote: The Royal We is “me, myself, and I”!)
Start by writing down (get a pen and paper right now) 50 things you like about you- or are grateful for… and keep the list with you.
How often have you thanked yourself for who you are? Start with saying “thank you for being…” and watch the difference it makes,
Or try the third person technique: if you can’t get to 10 quickly, pretend that you were looking back at your life and writing about yourself in the third person. (Here’s an example: Carol is an eloquent and passionate speaker. Carol cares about people more than things…)
When you focus on becoming your own best friend, self-love emanates from within and you’ll become happier by the day (no matter what your external circumstances). Being alone and not lonely is one of the greatest gifts my divorce has given me – I love being with myself, and I am truly grateful for who I am – for me.
Wishing you a happy weekend, whether you spend it alone with your new best friend (YOU!) or the company of others!
p.s. It is EARTH DAY today… I am grateful that YOU are on this earth and reading this!